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Feb. 15th, 2013 10:41 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
breezeshadowI really can't say if I'll be staying on DreamWidth or not, because all it does it make me anxious, and it's not like anyone seems to have an interest in what I post anyway.
I've had pretty bad writer's block for a few weeks, and also it seems my time of the month brought with it a pile of mess. AMong these are feeling like I'm easily replaceable in almost all aspects of my life, from work to friendships. And then I sent an e-mail at work that apparently confused/offended a lot of people, and ended up with the supervisor trying to give me advice on how to send it next time, but some part of my brain just... Couldn't process what I had done wrong. It's like the autism that is in my genes suddenly switched on. I'm STILL not entirely sure how I could have gone about sending that e-mail without confusing/offending people, which means I probably shouldn't have sent it at all, which just makes me more anxious and feel like I'll be fired, etc.
Communication failures are normal for my life, granted, and most of my coworkers seem to just go with it as best they can. But anxiety doesn't care.
I'm going to a writing meetup again on Sunday, with supervisor possibly joining me since apparently she also likes to write. Hopefully I'll get some work done on AG and possibly FIW then. For now, however, I'm going to try and sip tea and calm down while Thalia dozes contentedly beside me.
Tschuess.
I've had pretty bad writer's block for a few weeks, and also it seems my time of the month brought with it a pile of mess. AMong these are feeling like I'm easily replaceable in almost all aspects of my life, from work to friendships. And then I sent an e-mail at work that apparently confused/offended a lot of people, and ended up with the supervisor trying to give me advice on how to send it next time, but some part of my brain just... Couldn't process what I had done wrong. It's like the autism that is in my genes suddenly switched on. I'm STILL not entirely sure how I could have gone about sending that e-mail without confusing/offending people, which means I probably shouldn't have sent it at all, which just makes me more anxious and feel like I'll be fired, etc.
Communication failures are normal for my life, granted, and most of my coworkers seem to just go with it as best they can. But anxiety doesn't care.
I'm going to a writing meetup again on Sunday, with supervisor possibly joining me since apparently she also likes to write. Hopefully I'll get some work done on AG and possibly FIW then. For now, however, I'm going to try and sip tea and calm down while Thalia dozes contentedly beside me.
Tschuess.
Re: *hugs*
Date: 2013-02-16 07:45 pm (UTC)