Just a little Public Fretting
Jun. 18th, 2011 01:13 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
breezeshadowI think my heart is preparing for a marathon. That or it's preparing to make a high-flying getaway away from my chest. Please don't, heart. I need to you to stay in there and pump my blood. Maybe a bit slower though, please.
I know I'm supposed to take these meds for night anxiety but dammit my brain is in such a static buzz I can barely think. It's almost paralyzing. The combination is not a pleasant one.
Aaaugh.
I think I will take this pill 'cause I'm not going to be operating heavy machinery today, and make that portobella burger, and sit down and try to tell myself to just play some videogames and try to calm down and you're not alone and grad school will work out and the world is not going to end in flames.
How does Cornell expect me to make a credit approval on myself. Why is that in my to-do list. I think the government is supposed to take care of that aren't they. I don't even know.
It's Saturday and I know I can't fix any of these problems and so I need to remember that weekend is for RELAXING.
If I could manage it.
Dammit I need a job.
I know I'm supposed to take these meds for night anxiety but dammit my brain is in such a static buzz I can barely think. It's almost paralyzing. The combination is not a pleasant one.
Aaaugh.
I think I will take this pill 'cause I'm not going to be operating heavy machinery today, and make that portobella burger, and sit down and try to tell myself to just play some videogames and try to calm down and you're not alone and grad school will work out and the world is not going to end in flames.
How does Cornell expect me to make a credit approval on myself. Why is that in my to-do list. I think the government is supposed to take care of that aren't they. I don't even know.
It's Saturday and I know I can't fix any of these problems and so I need to remember that weekend is for RELAXING.
If I could manage it.
Dammit I need a job.
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Date: 2011-06-18 05:44 pm (UTC)I trust that you'll find stability and fulfillment in your life because you're smart and driven and accomplished already. Where is there to go but up? If you brainy forward-looking types can't make it in the world, I worry for a flighty person like me. *wry grin*
All my relaxing thoughts go to you today.
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Date: 2011-06-18 06:01 pm (UTC)And thank you for the well-wishes; my brain has gotten into its "Everyone secretly hates you and is going to abandon you so you might as well just give up and leave them alone" cycle (and it's always been the toughest cycle to break), so any encouragement and relaxing thoughts are much appreciated. Maybe it'll get my brain to calm the hell down, ha. xP
I'd probably be a lot less anxious if I didn't set the fire alarms off while cooking this burger. At least it tastes good?