![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
breezeshadowI just need to say
What the fuck. I'm starting to get the feeling that I must not be as mentally ill as I think I am simply because of all of the recommendations that this therapist keeps giving me. First he kept calling in the middle of the work day, and NOW, his first recommendation? The groups are all at times when I am working. At times when MOST people would be working.
To top it all off, it's $70 a WEEK to attend these sessions. For fuck's sake, I'm in the bay area with loans, I can't AFFORD to go to a therapy session for $70 a week. Who the fuck CAN? Are these classes targeting the rich unemployed group? I casually mentioned how I wasn't going to therapy to Hari and that got him worried which got me worried which has me thinking "hey maybe I shouldn't be so isolated and feel like no one likes me and it's my fault anyway" but what the fuck HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO DEAL WITH THAT IF I CAN'T AFFORD TO?
Anyway.
Going to try to get some writing down tonight, but for now, try a bit of yoga as my left shoulder has been hurting, which then sometimes causes my elbow to sting and then results in numb fingers. So whatever is pinched in there, I'd like to try and let it stretch.
Also take an Ativan because I'm panicking over hearing someone roll something down the hall.
Tschuess.
What the fuck. I'm starting to get the feeling that I must not be as mentally ill as I think I am simply because of all of the recommendations that this therapist keeps giving me. First he kept calling in the middle of the work day, and NOW, his first recommendation? The groups are all at times when I am working. At times when MOST people would be working.
To top it all off, it's $70 a WEEK to attend these sessions. For fuck's sake, I'm in the bay area with loans, I can't AFFORD to go to a therapy session for $70 a week. Who the fuck CAN? Are these classes targeting the rich unemployed group? I casually mentioned how I wasn't going to therapy to Hari and that got him worried which got me worried which has me thinking "hey maybe I shouldn't be so isolated and feel like no one likes me and it's my fault anyway" but what the fuck HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO DEAL WITH THAT IF I CAN'T AFFORD TO?
Anyway.
Going to try to get some writing down tonight, but for now, try a bit of yoga as my left shoulder has been hurting, which then sometimes causes my elbow to sting and then results in numb fingers. So whatever is pinched in there, I'd like to try and let it stretch.
Also take an Ativan because I'm panicking over hearing someone roll something down the hall.
Tschuess.
