Small update with 100% More Jetlag
Dec. 29th, 2012 06:24 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
breezeshadowHello all.
This will either be short and simple, or long and rambling. I can't really say for certain myself.
First off, I hope you all had a lovely holiday, or are having one as the case may be. Mine was quite relaxing, which is actually sort of frightening considering how it usually is. Unfortunately flying to CT and back left me with a stubborn case of jetlag, which has reduced me to spontaneous bursts of exhaustion.
I also got a raise at work, which is pretty awesome and allows me to look for places closer to my work to move to. Unfortunately, my mother and my former high school best friend's mother like to tag team me in a useless mother advice pile. I made an innocent comment about how I didn't know what I'd do with so much more space, and my mother said well just find a smaller place in the area. Because finding affordable apartments that aren't run by slumlords is totally easy in the bay area.
But yes, so basically I'm jetlagged but keep working and looking for a new home anyway because relaxing what's that.
Onto other matters, my classic OCD about food is coming back, Zoloft be damned. For those who don't know, I was once diagnosed with EDNOS (and anorexia apparently, I found out NOT from the doctors) because I am below normal BMI, and have strange eating habits. I've long come to the conclusion that that clinic is full of utter shit, and have gone back to labeling my weird eating habits as OCD, as that is in essence what they are.
At the height of its power, I checked expiration dates, used everything in the order of when it would expire first, would only have one box of something opened at a time, have an extreme aversion to eating leftover food, and basically ate mostly pasta and canned soup. College forced that kind of diet to expand, but I've noticed that it's trickling back.
Right now, the aversion to leftovers is back pretty strongly, as is the automatic dislike of any food that just doesn't LOOK right to me. Yesterday at work we had like... Enchilada casserole, and even though it looked fine, I ended up buying a spinach salad with goat cheese, walnuts, and strawberries from Specialty's because I felt like my stomach just wouldn't LIKE the heavier food. The salad was delicious, granted, and quite filling, but it gave me a hint that something in my brain is rewiring back to stupid.
Luckily, my weight is still stable as far as I can tell, and my appetite seems mostly around. So this will mainly just require a lot of mindfulness regarding my eating, and making sure I actually expand and eat more than just pasta and soup. And to make sure I eat leftovers. Tonight for dinner I plan to eat leftover soup that my OCD is labeling "TERRIBLE IT WILL TASTE AWFUL", and to serve it with a pasta salad using leftover pasta from lunch. I need to find a dressing to use, but I"m tempted to toss it with a few spring greens, get some vegetables in there.
Because seriously. I don't like throwing out all of my leftovers from Thanksgiving because my brain labeled them "NO GOOD".
Oddly enough, this has caused me to really like fresh fruit. I ate two clementines for dinner Wednesday night when I got back into CA. Like, WTF?
On that note: if any of you have some unique vegetarian/vegan recipes you'd like me to try and rate for Dinner Time, now is a great time to post them! I made three of the ones I have in my bookmarks for Christmas. One of them was great, one of them needs a tad bit of work, and the last I give up xP
So yeah. Sorry for vanishing. I've been quite busy today and DW is usually the first thing I neglect when that occurs.
Tschuess.
This will either be short and simple, or long and rambling. I can't really say for certain myself.
First off, I hope you all had a lovely holiday, or are having one as the case may be. Mine was quite relaxing, which is actually sort of frightening considering how it usually is. Unfortunately flying to CT and back left me with a stubborn case of jetlag, which has reduced me to spontaneous bursts of exhaustion.
I also got a raise at work, which is pretty awesome and allows me to look for places closer to my work to move to. Unfortunately, my mother and my former high school best friend's mother like to tag team me in a useless mother advice pile. I made an innocent comment about how I didn't know what I'd do with so much more space, and my mother said well just find a smaller place in the area. Because finding affordable apartments that aren't run by slumlords is totally easy in the bay area.
But yes, so basically I'm jetlagged but keep working and looking for a new home anyway because relaxing what's that.
Onto other matters, my classic OCD about food is coming back, Zoloft be damned. For those who don't know, I was once diagnosed with EDNOS (and anorexia apparently, I found out NOT from the doctors) because I am below normal BMI, and have strange eating habits. I've long come to the conclusion that that clinic is full of utter shit, and have gone back to labeling my weird eating habits as OCD, as that is in essence what they are.
At the height of its power, I checked expiration dates, used everything in the order of when it would expire first, would only have one box of something opened at a time, have an extreme aversion to eating leftover food, and basically ate mostly pasta and canned soup. College forced that kind of diet to expand, but I've noticed that it's trickling back.
Right now, the aversion to leftovers is back pretty strongly, as is the automatic dislike of any food that just doesn't LOOK right to me. Yesterday at work we had like... Enchilada casserole, and even though it looked fine, I ended up buying a spinach salad with goat cheese, walnuts, and strawberries from Specialty's because I felt like my stomach just wouldn't LIKE the heavier food. The salad was delicious, granted, and quite filling, but it gave me a hint that something in my brain is rewiring back to stupid.
Luckily, my weight is still stable as far as I can tell, and my appetite seems mostly around. So this will mainly just require a lot of mindfulness regarding my eating, and making sure I actually expand and eat more than just pasta and soup. And to make sure I eat leftovers. Tonight for dinner I plan to eat leftover soup that my OCD is labeling "TERRIBLE IT WILL TASTE AWFUL", and to serve it with a pasta salad using leftover pasta from lunch. I need to find a dressing to use, but I"m tempted to toss it with a few spring greens, get some vegetables in there.
Because seriously. I don't like throwing out all of my leftovers from Thanksgiving because my brain labeled them "NO GOOD".
Oddly enough, this has caused me to really like fresh fruit. I ate two clementines for dinner Wednesday night when I got back into CA. Like, WTF?
On that note: if any of you have some unique vegetarian/vegan recipes you'd like me to try and rate for Dinner Time, now is a great time to post them! I made three of the ones I have in my bookmarks for Christmas. One of them was great, one of them needs a tad bit of work, and the last I give up xP
So yeah. Sorry for vanishing. I've been quite busy today and DW is usually the first thing I neglect when that occurs.
Tschuess.
