breezeshadow | Clumsy Is as Clumsy Does

I had weird dreams last night, and despite sleeping from 10:45PM ish to about 5:45AM consecutively and then laying in bed, I felt exhausted. I was almost falling asleep on my feet before I drove to work, then there was heavy traffic and two accidents. At work I felt better.

One of my superiors asked if I could do a task for her while she did something else, and I said yes, as I'd done WAY crazier before, and felt I could handle it. I was rushing a bit to get everything done, but not too worried, and leaned in to do something.

ANd then got clunked in the head by a fast-moving machine piece that did not stop in what it was doing, and kept on going after knocking me. They're pretty merciless.

It hurt, but I wasn't knocked unconscious or anything, and then did what I do best... Ignored it. At one point I thought I had even mixed stuff up, in a moment of panicked confusion, up until I realized that that just didn't make SENSE.

THe pain continued for a while, and then finally, after over an hour, I went... What am I doing. I need to SAY something. I was afraid of being considered stupid or being yelled at but dammit, if something went wrong with the machine or me then they'd need to know why beforehand. At first I was going to e-mail but thankfully some sensible part of me overrode and I casually mentioned it to my supervisor.

Of course she didn't care about if the MACHINE was fine, she was worried about me.

And then I had to go to an occupational clinic, where I was discharged and declared fine, but still diagnosed with a head contusion and given a head injury sheet about how to handle it. And sent back to work.

Everyone's reactions were something to the effect of "Are you okay?" and "Why didn't you SAY SOMETHING?"

The poor coworker who was in the room at the time seemed especially horrified when she found out it happened when she was there, and I still said NOTHING, since she had to find out from OTHER people (little gossips) and not from me. I got a mini-lecture from them both where I apologized because it just didn't cross my mind, but it also helped me realize.

Man. What an ASSHOLE move. I was motivated by a need to just keep working, and nervous about what may happen if I said anything. But really, I put my poor coworker through hell and possible liability issues by NOT telling her the second it happened, instead of just going "Meh the machine seems okay, I'll keep going." Yet of course my brain keeps going back to "And what if you MESSED UP the results?" even though I doublechecked everything.

And that brings us to those little instructions.

I'm supposed to be woken up every two hours for the next 24 hours of sleep.

If I do that, there's no way I can get into work. I'll be sleep-deprived. And sleep deprivation may have caused the issue in the first place.

But I also want to just risk it because hell I"m probably fine right? Doctor thought so. Never mind that I may feel the effects later, I should just sleep the night and go into work, or go into work on low sleep.

So I guess I should go to bed, then set my alarm for two hours, and just keep on doing that tonight and see how I feel.

Especially since I forgot about this post, so...

Tschuess.