Boring Things, Nothing to See Here

[breezeshadow]

Feeling a bit bitter about some things today -- while plenty of things in my life are going the way I want them to, or at least just progressing well enough, some things still on my mind have me kind of upset and hurt and I'm not sure my method for dealing with it will remove that some, in the end.

In other news:

a) I have freakin' 45 recipes from the internet to go through because Hari can't stop sending me stuff. So: for a month, starting next time I get money, I will be going through one recipe a day, and likely posting them here for my Dinner Time sub-blog. If I gain a few pounds doing this, then MISSION ACCOMPLISHED-- I mean, uh, added bonus.

b) Going to try getting some exercise in my routine to build muscle, because contrary to Gannett's belief, just eating is NOT encouraging my body to do this. At all. I don't even KNOW what it is doing with that food. I miss having even a tiny bicep and I think the only way I can convince my body to put it back is to use it a crapton and trick it into thinking I need it. I really like lifting weights so I may buy some small ones from Target at some point, but for now, swimming once a week for about 15-30min as I can handle, and also just some sit-ups/push-ups. Maybe more of the sit-ups because unfortunately my right wrist is so damn weak that even 15 light push-ups with breaks every 5 may have killed it -.- (I stopped the second it hurt badly, of course). I may also try incorporating a small amount of yoga as well, but that'd be an end-of-the-day exercise routine. It should help my joints if I'm careful.

I swam on Saturday, laps back and forth for 15 minutes, and my legs were SO WOBBLY MY GOD. I love how people think I'm in great shape because I'm thin as fuck when actually I have no fat AND no muscle. Because my body is a moron. My legs are actually the most muscular part of me too.

I'm not going to do cardio because I don't have any fat I need to get rid of. Quite the opposite, I really need to gain fat too.

I don't really know if any of this would be triggering. If it was sorry, let me know how, I'll put up a TW.

I should finish these waffles and drive to work. Probably will wear wrist splint today; had to yesterday (pre-pushups even) because it just suddenly has been hurting. I think the stuff I do at work has it pissy.

Edit - Also guys I have a FULL-TIME JOB. AT A PLACE RELATED TO MY MAJOR. That I can't talk about at all due to the NDA I signed but SERIOUSLY THIS STILL DISORIENTS ME.

Also it's been a little over a month since I moved to CA. I will say that this certainly is not the worst decision I've ever made. I still just can't see myself staying in this state for more than 5-10 years, though; sorry CA, but so far, you have done very little to impress me. Though the cheap electricity is pretty cool. And I do like my apartment in all its coziness. But the $188 to register my car and needing to prove I was freakin' BORN to get a driver's license (I already got one in CT, do you think they just throw them around? .... Yeah okay they probably do) and the horror that is the traffic... Yeah no.

Tschuess.

Comments

[smw]

I'm excited to see you making plans to do things that will help your physical and mental health. I will note that cardio, despite the fact that it's billed as such, isn't all about losing weight; on the other hand, I friggin' hate it and so do my joints, so I don't at all blame you for skipping over it.

High-five to the person doing work related to their major! I'm still impressed by this, man. I'd like to bristle and defend my home state, but honestly I intend to get out of here the minute I've got my degree in hand, so I really can't fuss.

[raze]

I'm really happy to hear of how you're doing so far out in Cali; it seems things are looking up for you, between the full-time employ, having your own place, and working on your fitness. Good things all around even with the big, daunting changes, so kudos to you.