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breezeshadowI'm really bad at sites like these. I used to be good at them, when I was more willing to think about, write down, and discover the common dull-drums and nonsense that is my life and mind.
Suffice to say a few things, though.
First off I passed all of my courses, even the accursed drug delivery, and now have a GPA that I can honestly say I am CONTENT with, one that won't screw me over for jobs. Suddenly jobs seem like a possibility, even if it is a remote one.
Second I am switching research projects to something that will hopefully not only be more useful but also less frustrating.
Third I am finally at the climax of the first part of AG, and thus I hope by the time I graduate, I will have finished the revisions of Part I of the novel.
Also I am trying to cook again. I know once I get back to my apartment I will go back to wanting to hide in my room away from the crazies, and I dread going back there because I fear what will have regrown in my absence. But I will try.
I visited my boyfriend's for a week and it was wonderful, and yet not even a week has passed since my return and I can already feel my stupid frettings about the relationship returning. We had a lovely time, we get along beautifully, we were making each other laugh over the silliest stuff all week, and leaving him behind was definitely one of the harder things I've done. And yet my brain still yaps at me. Such is my life I suppose.
So yes. Sorry for leaving. I will try to read and post more often but I can make no guarantees because I'm just kind of bad at this.
Also you know why my boyfriend is awesome? He buys me DRAGON PEARLS that's why. Also pot necklaces. Pot Necklace is a beautiful necklace that seems sturdy that he bought from some hippie in Ecuador who will likely use the profits to buy weed. It's the best story any necklace could hope to have associated with it.
So yes. Dragon pearls, pot necklaces, and Discworld. These are the things my boyfriend provides me with <3
Also last night I dreamed my graduation was in March instead of May, and I was playing some bingo-like chip game with high school classmates and the back of Neil's head, and then I lost and cried. And then I lost my bookbag and was freaking out because I needed it, and Hari tried to help me find it but finally he just turned to me and told me I should have brought more than a bookbag for a flight, and I replied tearfully "I DROVE", and he sat there awkwardly.
I finally found it in a pile with everyone else's stuff and moved into the room where were graduating, but it was like my high school's auditorium, and when I told the guy I was there to graduate he looked at me sternly and told me that THIS ceremony was for people with presentations. The other guy searched for my name and they finally reluctantly let me in, and dragged me onto the stage, where high school classmates of mine were performing some dance routine based on Nightwish's new album.
I didn't want to sit with the cheerleaders because I figured that would make me stand out, but I was afraid to stand up on the bleachers because my legs were apparently horrifyingly long and I knew I'd fall. I managed some awkward balancing as the high school classmates ran over to try and include me in the dance routine. Somehow I left. THen came back and tried to sing along but the song was not QUITE the song I knew, and so I knew I was just making a fool out of myself.
Then I woke up and realized I had overslept because there are few things more adorably comfortable than a cat laying on your head.
Also wow I wrote about that dream in a beautifully ADHD manner. I'm not sure what to say about that.
Today's goals: get some writing done this evening. Get some reading done while playing the Sims, because A Game of Thrones is interesting. They are plain goals, I guess.
Also: hope the Lexapro isn't fucking my system up. It's such a small hope!
So yeah. Sorry for disappearing. I can't guarantee I won't do it again.
Tschuess.
Suffice to say a few things, though.
First off I passed all of my courses, even the accursed drug delivery, and now have a GPA that I can honestly say I am CONTENT with, one that won't screw me over for jobs. Suddenly jobs seem like a possibility, even if it is a remote one.
Second I am switching research projects to something that will hopefully not only be more useful but also less frustrating.
Third I am finally at the climax of the first part of AG, and thus I hope by the time I graduate, I will have finished the revisions of Part I of the novel.
Also I am trying to cook again. I know once I get back to my apartment I will go back to wanting to hide in my room away from the crazies, and I dread going back there because I fear what will have regrown in my absence. But I will try.
I visited my boyfriend's for a week and it was wonderful, and yet not even a week has passed since my return and I can already feel my stupid frettings about the relationship returning. We had a lovely time, we get along beautifully, we were making each other laugh over the silliest stuff all week, and leaving him behind was definitely one of the harder things I've done. And yet my brain still yaps at me. Such is my life I suppose.
So yes. Sorry for leaving. I will try to read and post more often but I can make no guarantees because I'm just kind of bad at this.
Also you know why my boyfriend is awesome? He buys me DRAGON PEARLS that's why. Also pot necklaces. Pot Necklace is a beautiful necklace that seems sturdy that he bought from some hippie in Ecuador who will likely use the profits to buy weed. It's the best story any necklace could hope to have associated with it.
So yes. Dragon pearls, pot necklaces, and Discworld. These are the things my boyfriend provides me with <3
Also last night I dreamed my graduation was in March instead of May, and I was playing some bingo-like chip game with high school classmates and the back of Neil's head, and then I lost and cried. And then I lost my bookbag and was freaking out because I needed it, and Hari tried to help me find it but finally he just turned to me and told me I should have brought more than a bookbag for a flight, and I replied tearfully "I DROVE", and he sat there awkwardly.
I finally found it in a pile with everyone else's stuff and moved into the room where were graduating, but it was like my high school's auditorium, and when I told the guy I was there to graduate he looked at me sternly and told me that THIS ceremony was for people with presentations. The other guy searched for my name and they finally reluctantly let me in, and dragged me onto the stage, where high school classmates of mine were performing some dance routine based on Nightwish's new album.
I didn't want to sit with the cheerleaders because I figured that would make me stand out, but I was afraid to stand up on the bleachers because my legs were apparently horrifyingly long and I knew I'd fall. I managed some awkward balancing as the high school classmates ran over to try and include me in the dance routine. Somehow I left. THen came back and tried to sing along but the song was not QUITE the song I knew, and so I knew I was just making a fool out of myself.
Then I woke up and realized I had overslept because there are few things more adorably comfortable than a cat laying on your head.
Also wow I wrote about that dream in a beautifully ADHD manner. I'm not sure what to say about that.
Today's goals: get some writing done this evening. Get some reading done while playing the Sims, because A Game of Thrones is interesting. They are plain goals, I guess.
Also: hope the Lexapro isn't fucking my system up. It's such a small hope!
So yeah. Sorry for disappearing. I can't guarantee I won't do it again.
Tschuess.
