Little Rambling
Oct. 12th, 2011 04:36 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
breezeshadowTo my new watchers, hello! I know you're likely watching for the writing, in which case, uh, I'll try to get better about that.
To everyone, a couple of things:
1) I have decided to try and get something published. This means that I am working on a story that I would be willing to share for comments and critique, however, I cannot post it on here. It is about the succubi, from the POV of a succubus whose child is stolen by humans to be raised in society "for their own good". Which means is mega-depressing and has some creepy parts so hey, if you're interested, let me know and I'll e-mail or IM stuff over.
2) My brain is doing wonky stuff. I was really, absurdly relaxed over fall break, and for some reason that made the compulsive OCD thoughts kick in and tell me I'm secretly a psychopath.
3) Apparently the doctors found a >5cm lump near my father's intestines. When he first told me this I was all "All okay" and it took approximately five minutes and about five seconds of his "I'd rather die than go through another colonoscopy" for me to get to "WAIT WHAT?!". The doctors do not think it is cancerous but they sent it for tests; it is not life-threatening at the moment. My father is cranky about having to go through multiple surgeries to remove it which is understandable, it means more lost work but I also want to shake him because DAMMIT IT'S A LUMP GET IT REMOVED DAD I DON'T WANT YOU TO DIE. So yeah. Here's hoping everything goes okay with him. His body seems to like forming gratuitous lumps of tissue -- he had surgery for nasal polyps once -- which has me nervous because I can see that turning into gratuitous amounts of cancer real quick. Ack. Just typing it up makes me nervous.
4) I had to cross out so many things when writing in my lab notebook today it probably looks ridiculous. Also my desire to eat -- I've been starving all day -- so badly outweighed my desire to make sure the microscope was functional that I think I may have ruined my results from it. D'oh. Though really, the gel was too old anyway so I likely would have rerun it, and it looks like WEIRD SHIT HAPPENED, but still. Fail, self.
5) I'm not sure how Lexapro and my body are getting along. For instance, I don't know if it was the reason I was incredibly ravenous today. Or the reason I'm having digestive wonkiness. Or the reason I'm a little spacey/chilled out. Who knows with me.
6) I feel this weird mix between "want to type a lot and do stuff" and "just want to sleep because there's no academic work to get done". Except lab work. Weird.
7) I have no idea where I'm going with this.
I think I should finish up my data analysis, I think I had only six cells left. And go to bed. Because I don't know WHAT my brain is doing but I think it needs to go to bed before it gets even weirder.
Edit - Haha. I get one cell in before I feel really tired, my energy crashes, and I start seeing things out of the corner of my eye. Good prank there, brain. Good prank. Bed time for me, a little early.
Tschuess.
To everyone, a couple of things:
1) I have decided to try and get something published. This means that I am working on a story that I would be willing to share for comments and critique, however, I cannot post it on here. It is about the succubi, from the POV of a succubus whose child is stolen by humans to be raised in society "for their own good". Which means is mega-depressing and has some creepy parts so hey, if you're interested, let me know and I'll e-mail or IM stuff over.
2) My brain is doing wonky stuff. I was really, absurdly relaxed over fall break, and for some reason that made the compulsive OCD thoughts kick in and tell me I'm secretly a psychopath.
3) Apparently the doctors found a >5cm lump near my father's intestines. When he first told me this I was all "All okay" and it took approximately five minutes and about five seconds of his "I'd rather die than go through another colonoscopy" for me to get to "WAIT WHAT?!". The doctors do not think it is cancerous but they sent it for tests; it is not life-threatening at the moment. My father is cranky about having to go through multiple surgeries to remove it which is understandable, it means more lost work but I also want to shake him because DAMMIT IT'S A LUMP GET IT REMOVED DAD I DON'T WANT YOU TO DIE. So yeah. Here's hoping everything goes okay with him. His body seems to like forming gratuitous lumps of tissue -- he had surgery for nasal polyps once -- which has me nervous because I can see that turning into gratuitous amounts of cancer real quick. Ack. Just typing it up makes me nervous.
4) I had to cross out so many things when writing in my lab notebook today it probably looks ridiculous. Also my desire to eat -- I've been starving all day -- so badly outweighed my desire to make sure the microscope was functional that I think I may have ruined my results from it. D'oh. Though really, the gel was too old anyway so I likely would have rerun it, and it looks like WEIRD SHIT HAPPENED, but still. Fail, self.
5) I'm not sure how Lexapro and my body are getting along. For instance, I don't know if it was the reason I was incredibly ravenous today. Or the reason I'm having digestive wonkiness. Or the reason I'm a little spacey/chilled out. Who knows with me.
6) I feel this weird mix between "want to type a lot and do stuff" and "just want to sleep because there's no academic work to get done". Except lab work. Weird.
7) I have no idea where I'm going with this.
I think I should finish up my data analysis, I think I had only six cells left. And go to bed. Because I don't know WHAT my brain is doing but I think it needs to go to bed before it gets even weirder.
Edit - Haha. I get one cell in before I feel really tired, my energy crashes, and I start seeing things out of the corner of my eye. Good prank there, brain. Good prank. Bed time for me, a little early.
Tschuess.
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Date: 2011-10-13 09:00 am (UTC)2. No.
3. Bleh, how worrying. I hope your dad makes a quick recovery - send well-wishes his way for me.
4. Sorry to hear that your hunger was disruptive, but I do hope you listened to it. Generally if the body is signaling that strongly, it knows what it needs.
5. IME digestive wonkiness and spaciness can be a side effect of Lexapro; hunger less so, but then again I react all the wrong ways to Lexapro if I take it on its own because I'm the fun sort of crazy. I like the sound of you feeling more chilled out though!
6. I'm inclined to say that based on your last few posts, rest might be a good thing.
7. That's okay, we love you anyways.